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Ukulele black and white by The-Isabelle-Brinan
Ukulele black and white
So did a photo shoot for the first time in ages! Was so much fun, very satisfying and the location was gorgeous and just so happy with how these came out! 

(Still rubbish at titling my photos!)

Model- Me
Photographer- Roger Pearce 
Location- Brockhill Community Park, Kent, UK
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Slowed Waterfall colour by The-Isabelle-Brinan
Slowed Waterfall colour
So did a photo shoot for the first time in ages! Was so much fun, very satisfying and the location was gorgeous and just so happy with how these came out! 

(Still rubbish at titling my photos!)

Model- Me
Photographer- Roger Pearce 
Location- Brockhill Community Park, Kent, UK
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Tree Stump 2 by The-Isabelle-Brinan
Tree Stump 2
So did a photo shoot for the first time in ages! Was so much fun, very satisfying and the location was gorgeous and just so happy with how these came out! 

(Still rubbish at titling my photos!)

Model- Me
Photographer- Roger Pearce 
Location- Brockhill Community Park, Kent
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Flower girl (favourite) by The-Isabelle-Brinan
Flower girl (favourite)
So did a photo shoot for the first time in ages! Was so much fun, very satisfying and the location was gorgeous and just so happy with how these came out! 

(Still rubbish at titling my photos!)

Model- Me
Photographer- Roger Pearce 
Location- Brockhill Community Park, Kent
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Slowed Waterfall Black and white by The-Isabelle-Brinan
Slowed Waterfall Black and white
So did a photo shoot for the first time in ages! Was so much fun, very satisfying and the location was gorgeous and just so happy with how these came out! 

(Still rubbish at titling my photos!)

Model- Me
Photographer- Roger Pearce 
Location- Brockhill Community Park, Kent
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I am SO sorry I haven’t written anything for the past month!

I am doing amazing, it’s 1am and this week alone has been so surreal that I’m suffer from derealization a little, but damn it, it’s so f**king worth it!

The big new first: On the 25th of August at 08:18, my sister gave birth to the most beautiful baby ever, Lola.
She had been having pains since Thursday and all of us were on edge up until Monday when she was finally born, we stayed up all night Sunday just in case and were exhausted by the time she was born.
With a massive family like mine I have seen lots of my cousin’s having their first, then second child, and nothing could’ve prepared me for the feelings I experienced.

Nothing can describe walking quietly into that room and meeting that gorgeous being. My sisters and I cried tears of pure joy at this tiny little miracle. Even thinking about it now makes me wanna start crying again. There are no words to describe how perfect that moment was. All 8 of us standing in that room. No arguing. No snide comments. Just utter silence and raw emotion. I can rarely think of any moment as perfect as that that involved any kind of human presence, besides my own. Much less with my family. Yesterday went so slowly that by the time it was evening it felt like it should’ve been later. I remember just smiling so much trying not to cry again or would’t be able to stop.

This morning we went to see her again when she came home with my sister and her boyfriend. It felt even more surreal holding her in my sister’s house, in familiar settings. I just couldn’t bring myself to believe that this baby was theirs. It felt that any minute now, they would be taking her back to her real parents as if they were only temporarily borrowing her. They came round my other sister’s house where we had another dinner (had finished off a roast dinner the day before) we had even more cuddles with this gorgeous babe. The more I held her the more I found it hard to believe that she wouldn’t be taken away and I wouldn’t see her again until another family meet up like my cousins’s.

We’re all still in shock I think, it’s gonna take a lot of pinching to believe this has happened.

The other news: I’ve finally met someone. And he’s a keeper by the looks of things.
On the first couple of dates I got so nervous when I was in the same room as him that I thought I would have a panic attack. Butterflies in the stomach. Are. Not. Nice. In. The. Slightest. Since then I’ve been sleeping round his most of the time and, even though this all started four weeks ago it somehow feels so right. It feels like we’ve been together for a hell of a lot longer than we have been. I’m still a bit reserved and worry but I guess that’s only natural. He is a massive sweetheart, and albeit a bit on the slow side, I’m nearly ready to tell other people I love him and mean it. I still worry about that part but I guess that the love I had for my big ex will always make me compare to current loves as there was a lot of passion in our relationship. But I’m slowly on my way to believing this guy could be it. And he didn’t even come in with any kind of big drama. He came quietly into my life when it was falling into place.

Everything feel so surreal for me, like things are nearly falling into place, but if someone had told me a year, or even a few months ago that this would all happen, or that I’d feel like this, I wouldn’t of believed them. Not one bit.
You guys have gotta understand that up until this year my sisters had been living at home. That none of them would of known how much things would change in less than a year. This is the massive change I have been waiting for for years. To feel like an Adult, to feel independent and free and like I might nearly have my shit together when most people my age had that mentality years ago, before starting uni.

I just can’t even believe how happy I feel in myself and how much I feel like comfortable I feel being me, in every aspect of my life.
I really feel like that mental breakdown was really what I needed. I feel incredibly lucky that I’ve managed to reduce most of my anxiety when so many suffer as much as I did every day of their lives for years on end, and I’ve managed to see the light so soon. Maybe this was what I needed. That final kick up the ass to finally get to where I wanna be.

Maybe.

For now I’d like to think so.

Out.

  • Mood: Sentimental
  • Reading: Birdsong

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The-Isabelle-Brinan
Isabelle Brinan
United Kingdom
Hi I'm Izzy
I love butterflies, small pretty things and i cherish the small moments of happiness that i have :)

Current Residence: England
Favourite genre of music: Mostly rock and indie
Favourite style of art: Watercolours
MP3 player of choice: iphone
Favourite cartoon character: Mulan
Personal Quote: 'Let the pain remind you hearts can heal'
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:iconmatou31:
Matou31 Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
and thanks for the other favs too :)
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Matou31 Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm very late, but thanks a lot for faving my Emily Browning portrait :)
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da-hazard Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the Fave on my Abandoned Lighthouse Isabelle! Really means a lot to me ;)

Abandoned Lighthouse by da-hazard
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nixuboy Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks a lot for the :+fav:Rainbow Emote - NaNoEmo14 Day 3 
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IvanVladik Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks very much for the fave :-)
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ralfw666 Featured By Owner 5 days ago   Digital Artist
Thank you very much Izzy! :hug:
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Allin97 Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thanks for the favvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv!!!
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UsagiTenshi Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for :iconfavplz:ing my art WHAT by UsagiTenshi !!  :iconhigh-fiveplz:
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Danimi Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2014  Student General Artist
Thanks a lot for the :+fav: in Day 28: Let Their Fear Collapse

I really appreciate it! <3
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Hakuwolfen Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thanks for the fav
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